Sometimes life hands us some tough decisions. Yesterday I was faced with one of these decisions and I thought I would share it with you all as it relates a lot to my journey as a health and fitness professional.
As a lot of you know and as I wrote last week I started studying nutrition at uni this year. My idea behind this was not to become a nutritionist as such but more so to expand my professional qualifications further helping clients as I am constantly asked for help with nutrition and while I have gained a vast amount of knowledge through my years as a pt, nutrition is an ever changing field and there is so much to learn.
When I tell people I'm studying nutrition they don't really bat an eyelid as they most likely think "oh yeah that makes sense" yet when I tell them I'm struggling because I'm undertaking a course in chemistry or biology they look at me and say "why are you doing that what has that got to do with nutrition?" And to be honest on the grand scale.. Nothing.
Yesterday as I was busy trying to cram in more information on the body (currently studying regional anatomy which is great, very interesting but also stuff I already know to the level I need to for my job) I had a bit of a "moment". You know it felt like I was digging a hole to get somewhere and the hole was getting bigger but I felt no closer to where I wanted to be. With no real end in sight.
I know some of you will think "doesn't she always preach consistency and commitment to your goals?" and HELL YES I do but I realised yesterday that I was unhappy and that 3.5 years was a long time to be busting my ass on a goal that may not get me where I initially set out.. Not to mention set me back 22 grand :/. Was I best effectively using my time? or was I going to dig and dig and dig and just end up with a bit if knowledge but mostly just a great big hole (metaphorically speaking lol.)
Those who know me know I hate to quit ANYTHING or to give up because it's completely the opposite of my work and personal ethic. That's been the biggest mental battle in the past 24 hours for me is the thought of being a quitter. I'm constantly telling people to "never give up" however i know that I do say this in terms of never giving up on something you really want even when it gets hard and yesterday I realised that it wasn't because it was hard it was because I couldn't say I truly wanted it anymore.
If thie course was filled with subjects that were growing my knowledge on nutrition and assisting me be better in those aspects I would no question continue to spend every waking hour studying and doing anything necessary to continue working my way through it for the next 3.5 years. But if I'm honest with myself it's really not and I believe that my time can be better utilized on other short term but more modern courses to help expand my knowledge in the areas I wish to pursue.
Like I said this decision has honestly been so hard for me there is no worse feeling than preaching to never give up all the time and then feeling like you are giving up however I'll leave you all with this:
Working as a Personal trainer is one of the best decisions I've EVER made in my life. It has taught me that you can love what you do every day and not feel like work is a chore or a task. It has taught me to truly appreciate being able to channel my passion every single day and help others and while I strongly believe in chasing your dreams and goals I also strongly believe that life is too short to waste time doing things that will not grow you or make you happy.
Working hard for something you want is passion but working hard for something that doesn't truly interest you mostly just leads to stress.
So stay tuned guys as I still plan on continuing to grow myself and set some new goals and gain more knowledge in the field of nutrition and more. It will just be better utilizing my time and preserving my sanity in doing so 😉
Have a great weekend xx